Greatest weight loss program EVER! Here’s a new thought for me…instead of wearing jeans that, at this point of time, are just way to tight…I decided to buy a pair of jeans one size up. Can I tell you how scary going up a size can be…but Guess what? NO MORE MUFFIN TOP! It worked!
Ok, before you think I’ve totally lost it….let me explain. There’s a serious reason for this post. A recurring theme of my posts have been about Grace. Once again…I am needing to put into place, the posture of Grace…this time for myself.
For too many years, I have struggled with how I look and have been obsessed with my weight. It can determine my mood and emotions at any given moment. It’s something that I remember thinking about and struggled with since I was 8 yrs old. Weight was always a focus in our family. For many years I had struggled with one form of an eating disorder or another. I have faced this beast in my life head on and have won and lost many battles. I have dug deep and understand the depth of where these struggles come from. God has brought healing and health in many of these areas in my life of which I give Him praise!
I AM NOT DEFINED BY THE SIZE OF MY JEANS: So before you may think that buying a larger size of jeans may not be the best form of taking care of myself…I disagree! You see for me….getting to a place where I can love myself no matter what size of jeans I wear is the BEST place for me to be. Yes, I will continue to work on losing the extra pounds I have put on these past years, I will win some times and I will lose some times. But it will be because I desire to be healthy, not for my worth and value. This is a long journey I am on, for the struggle is very real at times. Yet with the affirmation of a loving husband and amazing friends – I get to listen to truth from their point of view and not the destructive messages I choose to many times to listen to in my own head.
So…it’s about this….: My worth and value is in who Christ is and who he is making me into be. I am more than the size of my jeans, I am more than what I’ve done or what I will or will not accomplish. I am loved and I am of value, I am worth dying for! It’s all about perspective!